I've been out for a few months, technically.

"Technically" because, while I have come out and announced that I am bisexual to friends and family, but it doesn't feel like it. I am out, but I feel like that has been a dead end. I hate this feeling. The idea that all my efforts to come out seem completely wasted is pretty troubling. Most difficult in this is that I seem to have lost all interest or motivation in dealing with it. Not that I don't have the motivation to deal with a problem, but that I've lost the feeling that it is even a problem to solve. I don't know how to solve something I can't feel is a problem any longer. I'm out, so I feel like I have no right or reason to spend more of my efforts on it. I have other things to do, between all of my family and professional obligations, so I would only be selfish to focus on any kind of energy on the issue any longer. I've already achieved the goal: I'm out. Anything else and I'm just being silly and wasteful and spending far too much time on a single topic.

That isn't how I want to feel, but I do.

Obviously, I would ideally have a different frame of mine and I would continue my efforts and direction in feeling more comfortable and open about my sexuality. In practical terms, I'm not sure how to make that happen. I am not even sure how to convince myself that there is any valuable reason in doing so.

I feel very strongly about being out, even if I've no intention on acting on it. There are far too many people who refuse to admit their bisexuality, and instead insist they are gay or straight, simply based on their current partner. These are some of the worst offenders when it comes to the problems of Bi-Invisibility and they could do a lot to be honest. And this is why I will be honest about myself, because I know what it means for this important cause. I've done that, and what I'm personally comfortable with fantasizing or acting upon doesn't change that, so I feel that as long as I'm out, that's good enough. I have to admit, I don't know if it is.